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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-23 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
[thank goodness, mystery isn't either, or else he would've tried offing himself long ago. it's enough having to deal with his own thoughts, let alone other people's, especially if it meant having no control over it and just constantly being bombarded with voices at random times. focusing on his own wants and needs, particularly in this moment, it's more than enough to have him reeling, his emotions a jumbled mess and his thoughts even messier— but romance's grip on him is firm and it's reassuring in a way he can't explain.

he clears his throat, preparing to answer romance's question, but something in him tells him to stop, to really think about this before he decides if this is what he wants or not.

does he want just romance or does he want the freedom of fooling around with the other saja boys, too? his feelings are twisted, wanting and needing colliding with each other, but it always circles back to the same thing: he wants and he needs romance. sure, the other boys have always treated him well, but they've never lived up to the way romance treats him; romance treats him like he's everything and he wishes for it to be the same with him in return.

a fun little romp with the other boys is fine, but it's nothing in comparison to the emotions he feels when he's with romance.

that panic starts rising in his chest again, the sensation gripping him so hard, it makes his throat close up, like the feeling alone is enough to suffocate him— then romance's forehead touches his and he exhales a breath he didn't realize he'd been holding. i want you, mystery. oh, and he is slipping deeper and deeper into it every second they're together.

his fingers squeeze around romance's briefly, then he releases his hands and reaches them to cup romance's face, holding him in place while he continues staring at him long and hard. he has never wanted romance to feel like he's just a one-time thing, no matter how many times they actually hook up, and if this is his chance to prove it by letting his emotions out, then so be it.
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Just us, Romance. [mystery's voice is still unwavering, dead-set and completely certain.] You and I. Nobody else.

[because romance is that important to him, so much so that even if he has to rip his own heart out and present it to him, he'll do it. whatever will make him happy.

he loves the other boys too, but not like he loves romance. and that's the thing of it, isn't it? he loves him and it's taken this long to realize that that's the exact word he wanted to put to the feeling he felt when they were first together.
]

Whatever I have to do, whatever you want me to do, I'll do it to prove that I want just us.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-24 06:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[frankly, romance shouldn't feel guilty. this is something mystery wants, even if it takes him a moment to consider it, but he wants to make absolute certain that he isn't just saying things to say them. no mysteriousness between them this time, just wholehearted and straightforward truthfulness; he wants to be with romance, regardless of if it's toxic.

he holds romance's gaze steadily, totally unwavering and unblinking, which may seem a little weird at first, but he wants to make sure that romance knows he isn't fucking around. not this time, not with him, and definitely not with anyone else now or ever.

it's probably best that they don't say it out loud yet, given the circumstances, but also because it would likely break one of them to a point there would certainly be no going back. (not that there is anyway, now that mystery's poured his heart out.)

his hands press a bit more firmly against romance's cheeks and when he leans into his touch, he can't help stroking over his skin for encouragement, hoping it's enough to comfort him like romance had been doing for him only moments ago. and if romance does cry, it's only right that he gingerly wipes the tears away, cradling him closer while he gently whispers whatever reassuring things he can manage.

i believe you. god, mystery's heart feels so full, it's almost like he could burst, and he almost does. tears start welling up in his own eyes again, but rather than let them spill over, he squeezes them back and nods with understanding.
] I'm here.

[and when romance leans to kiss him, he moves to meet the motion, a quiet little hum passing between them after romance's hand slides into his hair. he lowers an arm, hooks it around the other demon's shoulders to tug him closer, then he breaks away to whisper against his lips, the softest repeat of what he's already said.] I'm here, [he says, though he does follow it up with a sigh and,] I promise.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-25 05:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[it makes him feel bad, but mystery just keeps wiping romance's face, kissing his cheeks, his forehead, his nose— anywhere that he can reach, he leaves soft little brushes of his lips for reassurance, hoping it's enough to help quell the tears. he would never do anything to make romance feel made fun of, especially not in such a vulnerable position like this, and if romance needs anything else, he's ready and willing to give it to him.]

You're welcome.

[anything, he thinks, and that's when romance leans to kiss him properly again, stealing his breath away with how fervent it really is. he dips impossibly closer, hooking both arms around romance's shoulders, his fingers lacing together at the back of his neck to effectively hold them in place.

however, his hands loosen when he feels himself being moved, both of them shifting to grip romance's shoulders instead once he's twisted and pressed down onto the bed. his breath leaves him in a soft huff as those hands dip beneath his shirt and nails scrape over his skin, causing him to immediately arch into the touch without second-guessing, the faintest smile quirking his lips at the edges.
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Take me, then. I'm all yours, Romance.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-26 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[he wastes no time moving so the shirt can come off, shaking his head to toss his hair afterward, a soft little laugh escaping him following romance's remark.]

So it would seem.

[but mystery meets each kiss with fervor, reaching his hands to cup romance's face again, thumbs brushing over his cheeks, their noses nudging together every now and then when he pulls back to breathe. he goes for romance's shirt after a moment, trying to peel it off him without disturbing what he's doing with his pants.]

I don't mind, though. [obviously, and he might be somewhat impatient himself, given how he immediately goes for romance's pants, too.]
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-27 05:04 am (UTC)(link)
[it's easy to tell that romance is rushing and mystery does his best to avoid getting in his way, but they do collide here or there while they're stripping each other, and he can't help grinning outright when they do. maybe he shouldn't be so amused, except he is and he has no second thought about romance still being upset with him.

yet, anyway. as they continue, it might hit him, but until then, he's letting the other demon do as he wishes and is only doing whatever is necessary to encourage him.

the growl is a pretty telltale sign that romance is still a little heated; it echos around them, shaking the mirror, the windows, and mystery's expression falters slightly. his brow furrows and he briefly glances around them, though his attention is immediately back on romance once he descends on him like that.

he hooks both arms around romance's shoulders to hold them together, a soft gasp passing between them when romance kisses him so fiercely, even if that doesn't stop him from kissing back. when those hands find his hips, he doesn't resist wriggling slightly, the motion hopefully reassuring, although he does feel a spike of anxiety striking his chest as if he's being... well, not punished, per se, but it feels different from the usual way they fool around.

nevertheless, a breathless groan escapes him and falls into romance's mouth, his arms tightening around him just as anticipated, his hips bucking against romance's in kind. there's little he can do besides latching on and, despite his momentary unease, he finds himself wanting more, which is what he's silently asking for with his movements.
]
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-27 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
[without second-guessing it, he leans into romance's touch, withdrawing one arm so he can reach the hand up and rest it against romance's, fingertips pressing light against his knuckles to hold him in place. he doesn't have to see where romance's other hand is going to know what he's doing; it's a rather obvious motion, if not a slightly questionable one, mostly because he isn't sure he's properly prepped for how eagerly romance is moving.

perhaps he doesn't understand it now, but he could when given the chance, and what better chance than now?

his breath comes in a shaky exhale, his hand still resting firmly on the back of romance's, like he's afraid if he lets go, it'll only make him more impatient. while it hadn't occurred to him at the time, he did think about it on his way to romance's room, how it would feel to be on the other side of such a text and he didn't like it. this is why he's not going to judge romance for still being pissed off if he is, he's just going to let him ride it out in whatever way he needs, even if it means an angry fuck.

still, his features are a clear mixture of anticipation and slight worry, as if he might move wrong and make things worse rather than making them better, which is exactly why he doesn't try moving when romance positions himself.

instead, he swallows hard, breathes another trembling sigh, then he licks his lips and strokes his fingers down romance's forearm for further encouragement.
]

I'm yours, [he says it unwaveringly, keeping his gaze fully focused on romance's face while he tacks on,] Promise.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-27 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
[to be fair, romance doesn't have to physically hurt him to hurt him. he's doing a pretty good job of beating himself up still, but when romance asks how he'd feel if it were the other way around, that shame and embarrassment rise with a vengeance, spreading throughout his chest, pressing against his heart like it's going to crush him to death. he huffs a rough breath, trying to shrink in on himself again, even if it's impossible not to roll his hips into romance's hand when he starts stroking him.]

I... I wouldn't like it.

[romance's mouth is warm against his ear, but there's a cold, sinking feeling in his stomach. he gently shakes his head, trying to fight back the burning urge to cry again, though he's careful not to bump into romance while he's doing so.]

I don't want anyone else to see you like that. [not now, not ever, and especially not when he knows how badly it hurt romance.

not only is there a burn in his face, but it spreads through his throat, down his chest and into his stomach, quickly replacing the coldness he was feeling moments ago. is this jealousy? is this what it feels like? if so, he doesn't think anyone should ever feel this way, particularly when it comes to someone he cares so much about.
]

I'm sorry... [he doesn't know how much he can say it, but he will do so until romance is appeased.]
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-27 05:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[while it takes all his willpower to do so, he manages not to withdraw from romance licking up his neck, but he does raise his shoulders afterward in an attempt to duck down.

this isn't fair. mystery fucked up and here romance is, touching him and kissing him like it's totally fine when it's not. if anything, romance should be allowed to do whatever he wants, even if only briefly, then they could have things settled. (or that's what mystery's twisted mind thinks, anyway.)

but romance forgives him and keeps touching him, trailing down to his shoulder where he leaves a bite that makes his hips jolt and his mouth pop open in a soft gasp. again, he shakes his head, a little more wildly this time, but he's still careful to not knock their heads together or anything.
] I don't— [which is why he doesn't say much else and what romance says next, well . . .

i love you. desperately. for a split second, he stops breathing altogether, his heart squeezed like it's in a vice, the sensation making him want to both scream and cry at the same time.

it doesn't dawn on him immediately that he should breathe, though when it does, he sucks in a breath, raises both his hands to romance's face and grabs him, forcing him up so they're face-to-face. he stares, his mouth hanging open slightly, as if he's searching for words that he can't find despite them being right on the tip of his tongue. he loves me? he loves me!

another, sharper inhale comes and he pushes forward to press their lips together in a searing kiss, one hand moving up into romance's hair, tangling through the strands while his opposite arm moves to wrap around him in a tight embrace. he holds it for a long moment, pouring all his feelings into the gesture first, but he does withdraw afterward, cheeks wet with fresh tears, his voice shaking slightly as he answers.
] I-I love you too, Romance.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-27 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[it's somewhat easier to think with romance's hand leaving his cock, but it's also a sensation that he wants to chase, a feeling to help him ignore all the emotions flooding through him that he isn't sure how to handle all at once. he knows he should say it back right away, especially with how he feels the same, but he's afraid. afraid that something so deep could further break what has already been cracked. somehow, it doesn't, though.

the words seep into the cracks, filling them in, warming him in a way he didn't think he'd ever feel again and yet here romance is, proving that wrong. maybe it's a lot all at once, that doesn't mean he won't say that he doesn't feel the same way because he does.

he strokes his hand through romance's hair, silently reassuring, another breathless noise passing his lips when the other demon grinds against him. it's easy enough to roll against him in kind, his legs shifting so he can wrap them around romance's waist, effectively locking them together, his breath borderlining on hyperventilating as romance rubs their cheeks together. he feels so full and not just for obvious reasons; his heart feels like it's going to burst.

no, romance said it at the right time, and despite his own worries, he can fully admit there's still a little lingering thing that bothers him.

saying it seems to break them a little further, with mystery falling silent again as romance lets his response sink in. he could mistake it for a heat of the moment thing, it's true, but the way it's said, the quiver in his voice, the way he moves to cradle romance's face again— there's no way he doesn't mean it. he would say it a hundred times if it meant that romance would believe him, except this one moment seems to work perfectly fine. he leans into romance's touch, sniffling slightly, his fingertips rubbing romance's cheeks in kind, slowly but surely moving down the sides of his neck to his shoulders where he lets his hands rest for now.
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I can't help it, [mystery admits quietly, trying to keep his voice from shaking again.] I hurt you. We love each other and I hurt you. [he presses heavier against the hand on his face, reaching to hold it, his exhale trembling despite his best attempts.]

Please, Romance, I want you to hurt me back. Whatever you want to do to me, I— I deserve it.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-27 06:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[as much as he wants romance inside of him already, he's kind of glad that he isn't yet, that they're just grinding together and touching one another like it's the most natural thing in the world. his other hand moves to press against his chest, a gesture he uses to try to calm his breathing, following the up and down motion of it until he can see his chest heaving less. he needs to calm down, even just a little, that way he doesn't end up working himself into an actual frenzy.

his own breath hitches when their hips come together again, the hand on his chest moving to rest against romance's, his fingertips pushing enough to dimple the skin, though his claws don't show. instead, they stay soft and human-like, painted nails a stark flash of contrast against romance's skin as he gently strokes romance's chest, right over his heart.

he pinches his lips, although that doesn't stop them from trembling, his gaze wholly focused on romance's face, his own expression twisting slightly.
]

But I do. [and, regardless of the fact he thinks he deserves to be punished, it doesn't stop him from leaning closer, a soft little whine escaping him after romance kisses his mouth. he nods without reconsidering, trying not to think too deeply about what romance might do because a part of him still selfishly doesn't want it, but he knows it's what he deserves. (or what he believes, anyway.)] Please...
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-28 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
[their fingers intertwine and mystery's heartbeat jumps, his breath still shaking a little as he exhales, his eyes fluttering shut whenever romance rests their foreheads together. this is too kind for him, he doesn't deserve it, doesn't deserve romance's affection after everything . . .

maybe romance isn't as jealous anymore, that doesn't lessen the fact he royally fucked up and he has to do something to make up for it; hurting him in return is the only thing he can think of that seems to be on equal footing.

it doesn't occur to him that making love could be just as much of a forgiveness as hurting him is. not immediately, anyway. give him a moment to let romance's words sink in somewhat deeper and perhaps it will dawn on him that it's a much better choice, especially in comparison to the other idea.

mystery trembles whenever romance noses along his hair, his hand clenching a little tighter to the one holding his, the timbre of romance's voice a comfort in this trying time.

of course, he will always want romance's teeth on him, whether it's a show of affection or possession, he doesn't care as long as romance is only doing it to him. he groans quietly at their hips rolling together again, his head tilting faintly so he can rest it against romance's, breath coming in a sharp gasp at the heat across his neck.

please, he wants to beg once more, relentlessly plead with romance to do something to make him feel like he'd felt not so long ago, but romance seems dead-set on giving him the opposite. he's holding his hand, grinding against him with purpose, making him feel treasured rather than rejected, and mystery wants to scream and cry, unsure how to handle the emotions that bubble up alongside such sweet gestures.

he finally lets his eyes flutter back open, mouth opening like he's going to protest, but then romance grabs his face and all he can do his gape, wide golden eyes staring up at him. don't ask me to hurt the person i'd die for. fuck, his heart, it really is going to explode at this rate.

his throat works with some extra effort, both of his hands moving this time, one of them drifting along romance's shoulder while the opposite one reaches to grasp his wrist, not pulling him away from holding him as much as it's just gripping.
]

Okay, [mystery rasps, fresh tears pouring down his cheeks again, his thumb rubbing against the inside of romance's wrist. how could he be so stupid, asking romance to do something like that? god, he really is just fucking up all over the place tonight—

but perhaps he can try again? try something that's a little less harmful.
] ...make love to me, then. Show me I'm yours over and over again and don't stop until we're both appeased.
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-28 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
[he can't help laughing as well, the noise somewhat shaky, but wholehearted, nevertheless.]

Good.

[because, as selfish as it is, he needs something to reassure him that everything really is okay, that they are going to be okay. mystery knows that romance is a love demon and he appreciates the fact that he leans more into that than the worst parts of being a demon. others probably would've just taken him up on the offer to punish him, and they would've done so happily, but romance doesn't; his way of showing things is much different. it almost makes him sigh with relief, though he bites it back, not wanting to show that he was actually worried about what could've happened, seeing as he truly thought his comeuppance should've been something far more brutal.

his grip tightens slightly on romance's wrist when the hand leaves his face and travels down his chin, over his neck and eventually coming to rest on his chest where he imagines romance can probably feel his racing heartrate. he doesn't concern himself with that either, however, too busy focusing on romance and the way he's looking at him.

beloved. he squeezes his eyes shut, fighting back the abrupt burn behind his eyes, then he reopens them and tilts until he can kiss romance's chin, his words hardly above a whisper,
] Give me everything. I love you, Romance.

[and he means it just as much as the first time, perhaps even more this time since he is more confident with the feeling now.]
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[personal profile] mysteriousness 2025-11-28 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
[a lot of things, really, and maybe – just maybe! – romance will be able to pull a straightforward answer out of him when he does eventually ask.

for the moment, mystery does his best to do what he's told, breathing in deep and measured and exhaling in the same manner, repeating the motion until his heart has started beating somewhat normal again. he hates to think that romance is worried about him being afraid, which is something else that helps calm him from the high-strung emotions he'd been experiencing. contentment feels so much better than anxiety, he has to admit, and he lets the feeling sink into him, his body slowly but surely relaxing against the mattress beneath them.

he tilts to meet the kiss better when it comes, his free hand moving and stroking over romance's cheek, silently appreciating him and everything that he is.
]

And you have all of me.

[albeit with clear reluctance, he lets romance pull away, both of his hands lowering to his sides so he can grip the bedsheets, fingers twisting up tight in the fabric in his best attempt to keep from grabbing romance to stop him. his head drops back as romance's mouth moves down his body, drawing soft little noises from him with each gesture, but he grows slightly louder whenever he reaches his hip and then rubs his cheek against his thigh. despite his best attempts, he does move one hand to rest atop romance's head once he's settled between his thighs, a sharp gasp passing his lips when that wicked tongue trails over his cock so languidly, causing him to roll his hips in response to the motion.

this feels so much better than punishment, the way romance's confidence pours back into him, making mystery outright thrilled that he's not so angry anymore.
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